It has been brought to my attention that my blog is a far cry from the stuff I wrote in the past. For those of you who have not followed my writing "career", I wrote a column for The Einkwell for two years called Moments of Clarity. It was a warm, fuzzy column about friends, family, parents, pets and finding the silver lining on every situation.

I received an email a while ago from someone who used to read my column and who stumbled onto by blog. I won't go into major detail, but the writer (you know who you are), said, "your column was so warm and upbeat. You were so positive and into finding the sunny side of life. What happened?"

WHAT HAPPENED?

Nothing happened. I wrote what was required for the column. The ezine was for the most part, a warm fuzzy place. They wanted writing that was positive and upbeat and that would warm the cockels of the heart. It was Chicken Soup and Chocolate all rolled into one ezine. I wrote what the editors wanted to see and what their readers wanted to read. And I enjoyed every minute of it.

However...there is no easy way to say this, so I will just put it out there: THAT AIN'T ME!

I am not a Mary Poppins kinda gal. I don't wake up, jump out of bed and break into song. Bluebirds do not land on my fingers and furry woodland creatures do not follow me everywhere. My name ain't Pollyanna.

My name is Kim and I am moody, sullen, tempermental, judgemental, impatient and an over all bitch...on a good day. And I can be a fucking bitch if you tick me off. I have a sharp tongue that can cut through a person if I am not careful.

I work hard to keep my general crabby nature to myself. But my take on life is far from the saccharin-soaked spin I put on it for my column. Personally, I think life can bite, big-time. There are lousy people in this world, and they live to say and do lousy things to those around them. As a matter of fact, I am more suprised when people don't screw me over than when they do.

For those who knew me pre-Moments of Clarity days, my column was a shock to them. As one friend put it, "If you were really the person that you write about, I would slap you." On the other hand, those that have only met me after I started writing the column and have gotten to know the real me make comments like a friend of mine did today, "I always knew you needed your own site for the real Kim to show up."

I prefer the real me to the KA of Moments of Clarity. I am more real. I see things for what they are, and I prefer to write about things without the sugar-coating and silver lining. That's why I like this blog. I can say what I want, and there is no editor who will email me with comments like "this is not like your normal columns", editor-ese for "I can't publish this, your readers don't want to know these things about you!".

Life is not simple. Life is what life is. It's complicated, it's messy and sometimes it simply sucks. There are no easy resolutions to problems...there is no such thing as the solution fairy.

But if there were, I bet she would be a crabby bitch too!
- posted by Kim @ 8:57 PM