I finished the full-book outline and the first chapter of my assigned book and shipped it off to my editor today. Now I get to play the waiting game. Fun fun.

As a writer you would think I would be used to the "hurry up and wait" atmosphere, but I'm not. I am still impatient as hell when it comes to finding out whether my work is acceptable or not. And I hate rejections. I don't get all watery-eyed and melt into a puddle of goo when I get one of those ugly slips of paper in the mail (or email), but I still dislike someone telling me that I am not good enough. It's like getting snubbed by the kids in the sandbox all over again.

Okay, so that never actually happened to me, but I bet that it feels pretty much the same way.

Now that I have that pesky deadline off my back, I think I am going to kick back and catch up on my computer games this weekend.

Yeah, right. I've three other deadlines looming over my head, and if I want to get paid in August, September and October, I had best get to querying some mags. Ah, the life of a writer...the round robin from hell.

My day job is still as hellish as ever. Whenever I see the new hires for the new project, I just want to scream, "You bastards shouldn't be training for that project! You should be training for ours dammit! We need you more, we were here first!" But alas, we get no new people....and there isn't a training class in the works for the forseeable future. I'm gonna feel really bad when I walk out of there for the last time in May, but the reality is that if I am ever going to make it as a full-time freelancer, then I need to become a full-time freelancer.

So, I guess I should end this happy blogging session and get some real work done...the kind that leads to checks, not just the love and adoration of my fans. LOL I am so full of myself. I knew my eyes were brown for reasons other than genetics...
- posted by Kim @ 3:10 AM