Okay, it's official...
I'm losing it.

I just looked at my driver's license and realized three things:

First, I really need to remember to put it back in my purse, cuz since I left it here at home when I left for work today, I couldn't get my paycheck cashed, therefore I had to bypass McDonald's and settle for frozen pizza for dinner. Not a good thing.

Second, it's due to be renewed next month, which is a good thing, since I never got another license with my current address on it, which would be a pain if all the cashiers in the Ohio Valley didn't know me.

Third, when I do get it renewed next month. it won't need to be renewed again for another 6 years. That would be 2010. Taylor will turn 18 and head for college later that year.

Can ya guess which of these things have me borderline depressed?

The thought that Taylor will be a numerical adult and college bound the next time I need to renew my license is a sobering thought. I'm not ready for that. I'm not ready to be a part-time parent/part-time empty nester. I want her here..with me...taking up space on my couch and keeping my wallet empty.

Okay, so even after she leaves for college she'll still be depleting my wallet, but it just won't be the same.

I know there are several milestones that will occur between now and my next license renewal (dating, her entrance into high school, her own driver's license, the TEEN years, etc.) but I still can't wrap my brain around the fact that she has only 6 years, 4 months, 5 days, 15 hours and 38 minutes of childhood left. Not that I'm counting or anything.

Oh well. All I can do is cherish the time I do have with my child. of course, even when she's 35 out on her own with a husband and kids of her own, she'll still be my child.

I'll just be too old and senile to remember. Wonder if I'll remember to renew my license then?
- posted by Kim @ 11:04 PM