Okay, the moment you have all been waiting for...
I passed the test!

It was ugly and I was kinda worried about it..but I passed. I am about to start taking live calls.

And I'm ready to chuck the whole thing!

I've changed my mind. I don't WANT to do this. Who am *I* to tell people how to make their modems work? I don't know my ADSL from my ADNT! (ADSL - the line in your house; ADNT - the test we do to check if you have a connection...okay, so I do know the difference theoretically...gimme a break, I'm freakin' out here!)

Maybe I'm just road weary and it's effecting my ability to think straight. Or maybe it's the voice screaming in my head "Get out -- Get out NOW!", but I spent the better part of today searching job ads and updating my resume (needed to put the new address on there anyway). And wouldn't you know it, I found TEN jobs that were perfect for me. So I am going to apply to those jobs and see what happens.

As for the job I already have...I don't know WHAT I'm going to do. I passed the exam by the skin on my teeth (you needed an 80, I got an 81). I spent most of last week completely lost and confused...and when I sat in with agents taking calls, I just felt completely out of place and filled with a "this is not right for me...I need to get out of here" attitude. I have the option of asking to be moved to another project, but there are no guarantees there are openings. I could stay with the project and see if I do catch on...but I'm not holding out much hope for that.

So, am I admitting defeat? Not yet. Do I think that I might be admitting it soon? Probably. Will I at least try it and see what happens? I guess so...even though the idea makes me nauseaous. But I've spent two weeks in a training class...guess I should find out what I know..or don't know...

Advice...PLEASE?!?


- posted by Kim @ 2:20 AM